Is been a long 8 month, still I haven’t had a single moment to settle down… I don’t know how to describe my 2009, a sad, memorable year??? As I have mention in my previous post, 2009 started off pretty horrible for me and my family.

After 4 month battled with cancer, my sister in law passed away peacefully on August 2009. It was really difficult time for us that she had left us so soon. I was about 29 week pregnant then, with the loss of my sister in law and the pressure from work, I try to stay calm for my babies but deep in I feel very very upset that I wasn’t able to do much to help her.

On the morning of September 11th, the stress have effected my babies, my water bag start to leaked and the doctor decided to take them out for the best. I was so worried cause I have a scan few day ago, that my boy is till very small in weight, but the doctor have ensure me is very safe to take them out. One hour later, I have a boy, James and a girl, Chloe.

Soon after they born, Chloe have to rush to ICU due to immature lung and James have to stay in warm incubator cause of low birth weight. It was so painful to see them suffer like that but thank god, they are fine and fit to go home with me after 3 week later.

For the next few month, regardless of how stressful taking care of them (due to the low birth weight, they tend to be more fussy then full term baby). we are overjoy by their arrived and we begin to planned for their first Christmas party… But a week before the Christmas, we have to drop everything, leaving my twin to my family care and flow back to England for my mother in law. She was in a very bad condition, the doctor told us she will not live through the Christmas. However, when we arrived, she seem fine with high spirit… She passed away 5 day after we back from England…we were so glad we were  there for her last Christmas.

Things happened so fast for the past 8 month…., slowly we back to our daily routine but it will never be the same again. The twin are pretty hands full, I hardly have a free time for myself but I do make sure I still keep knitting….in a very very slow manner.

Chloe have develop a strawberry mark/hemangioma three week after her birth, but doctor advice not to do anything, just leave it and let it go off by itself…lucky it stopped growing last month, hopes will disappear soon.

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